consider it.

Some "events" that has happened since the last post made me think about the different point of views that might have to be considered in each "event". The events I'm talking about here is the AL and RG case. AL case has been going on for a few weeks now and RG is a recent one. Not actually the AL case, but A broke one of the R's camera.

These two cases are just examples of many situations which arouse different point of views from both the subject and the public despite that each side might have strong reasons to back him or herself up.

In the first case, neither sides are justified. If AL case didn't exist at the first place, R wouldn't be present at that moment and R's camera wouldn't be broken as well. R's was present because it was his/her job hence to earn money. And why AL case exist? Again, the "victim" has his or her own reason and he or she might not be guilty but not innocent. AL case wouldn't have existed if there were no contribution from "third party" because it wasn't their business, at all. I believe "it" was personal for AL and "it" wasn't expected to cause an issue and not attracting public's attention. But then, regarding AL's status, AL's action isn't justified as well.

In the second case, which happened recently (Saturday night), what AG did surely attract many pros and cons comments and critiques. You can say that the entire world knew what AG did. Many surely tried to think positively although the fact and effect is negative (causal effect). Millions surely talked about it, not to mention that half a page of about 40 pages of this morning's newspaper recalled what happened. If I were AG, I'd be very embarrassed of myself and how it happened will surely stick to me in my entire life. Some say AG's "suit" was probably the reason why it happened. It's simply a human error. Minors said that there isn't any explanation to what happened other than AG wasn't fully concentrated to what AG was doing and people shouldn't blame AG's "suit". Oh well, in every "case", pros and cons will arise from neither side.

These reminded me that in every case, we shouldn't blame one or the other side, but to put ourself in both shoes. What will you feel, do and act if you were A? What will you feel, do and act if you were B? We shouldn't judge just based on what we see (subjectively), but think about all the probabilities in every case. Yes, sometimes it's rather difficult for us to think that way because it is always easier for us to look at the negative side and to critique. It is always difficult to think positively and just to accept what happened.

People make mistakes.

I do, you do, we do and they do. If each and every person thinks negatively and acts based on it, there wouldn't be a year 2010. Okay, that's a little bit exaggerating, but the truth is, we would be living in chaos because none are tolerant, most or every one are selfish and mind others' business in a negative way. There would be no peace.

I want to share this picture:

"We all make mistakes"

Yes, we do. And we should always try to forgive whatever mistake the other side has made. In order to do that, we should try to position ourselves in their position. Did they intend to do it? How would you feel if you were them? Would you be able to easily "apologize" or would you feel this guilt that you're afraid he or she wouldn't forgive you?

Sometimes it just feel right that you (the correct side) make that first move to simply make "it" clear between you and the other side, to simply ask for their reasons to what they did. A simple and short talk with the "guilty" side may be quite hard for you, may be because you don't think it's necessary and when they're "sentenced" guilty, there is nothing they can say to make them become innocent. That, in fact, isn't what it's about. It's simply how you try to eliminate any hatred or "dislikes" in between the two sides. When things are clear and that you know their reasons, or pros and cons, you will be glad to be able just come up with a satisfying conclusion between the two sides.

But again, yes..

It's difficult, but not impossible.

life.karma.dream

Currently, several things are in my mind. Thus, I decided to write again although yesterday I just wrote one.

Life's been a roller coaster.

Specially for the last twelve months. I don't know if this is karma. Do you believe in karma?

Karma.

According to Princeton, Karma is "the effects of a person's actions that determine his destiny in his next incarnation".

Found this image on net:

Based on the above definition, you can say that karma is "an eye for an eye", which is that everyone else will treat you the way you treat others. Thus if you want people to treat you appropriately, then treat them appropriately first.

It's based on personal experience? Perhaps.

I've regretted several things that I've done in the past, really "the past". Not just the last 12 months, but for the last several years of my life.

Family issue? Maybe.

Academic issue? Maybe.

Love issue? Maybe.

Life issue? Maybe.

I've been trying my best to make things better -in a way-. But I guess it isn't as simple as I thought it'd be. I believe that Karma will stick to you for a life time.

In the past, I've made several "foolish" decisions and actions. I regret that I didn't thought about it over and over again before I took those steps. And yes, you can say that I am poor in experience, very poor. Then comes the "cause and effect" thing. I had to take steps that I didn't have to do if I wasn't that foolish. I'm not saying that I'm now mature and ALL my decisions are all correct and justified, but I think that I've thought about most of the steps that I took, and if I do regret, it will may be just a "slight" regret but I certainly hope I wouldn't.

I guess -probably- karma is into me now, due to one of my steps in the past. Some say (including me) I shouldn't regret about it because it was part of my journey of life, but some say, I should have think twice about it. But whatever, it has happened and now it's karma. I simply hope that it will end soon although I did say that karma is for a life time, but I really hope this karma will end soon, I mean I really want this to work. Don't know and don't really believe that it will end soon, but it's okay to hope, I suppose?

I really want this to work. Please. Pretty please.

Yet, it's again up to Him. If He wants it to happen, it will happen, some way and some day. Kept on thinking that He wants me to go through all this. Times when I was very happy and times when I am down, really down there, lost in my unconsciousness. As if all those was simply a beautiful dream that I can't get reach of.

I'd like to share this song, "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood, below is its lyrics so that you can sing along. Hope you enjoy ^^

It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
All dressed in white, goin' to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Six pins in her shoe, somethin' borrowed, somethin' blue

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down, tryin' to hide the tears
Oh, she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

The preacher man said, "Let's bow our heads and pray
Lord, please lift his soul and heal this hurt"
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard

And then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, well, what could've been?
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Ooh, baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, I'll never know

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
It's just a dream, yeah, yeah

another half

Okay, so my previous post was simply an update and I wasn't quite finished "telling my story". Anyways, about HMJK -first- meeting. Maybe I should introduce the HMJK 2010-2011 members.


1st row: Yonathan Djaja, Kristina Astuti Winarto, Pamella Djakaria, Elvira, Oki Yonathan Oetiono, Gregory Joey, Admiral Zega, Riki Saputra, Tommy Mandagi, Victor, Adrian Gunawan Ali
2nd row: Audrey Budiono, Anita Darmawijaya, Sheila Stephanie Chandra, Lydia Linggawaty, Oei Kristina Hariyani Wijaya Pratikno, Viona Tjin, Glory Takizawa, Fediah Iskandar, Jessica Wangsa, Patriscia Tanuwijaya, Clarissa Natashia Sadikin
3rd row: Cynthia Christine Jonachan, Aliyya Rifki, Nesa Kusuma, Dian Yosie Monica, Melissa Ayu, Aryani Sutarnio, Cindy Prayogo, Cynthia Sabrina, Lady Anjani
4th row: Yuricho Alexander Yogianto, Jonny Wijaya, Bobtriyan Tanamas, Dyka Wihardjo (ME!!)

I can say that I'm quite satisfied with this year's HMJK members, maybe more satisfied than last year's, but I think I can't say that yet coz we just had our first meeting and we haven't hosted any events yet. Maybe it's more appropriate to comment on it later.

So we've planned several events throughout this one year period, coming soon is Welcoming Party for class of 2010 and Outbound. Perhaps I'll talk more about this after the details of these two events have been published.

As some might know, I'm the Chief of Media & Communication Division, same position as in the previous senate. Speaking of "senate", we changed our organization from Senate to HMJK (Himpuanan Mahasiswa Jurusan Kedokteran, or Medical Students Association of UPH). It was basically due to "member recruitment issue". If we stayed wtih "Senate", then we should -have- recruited students from SON (School of Nursing). After we had quite a long discussion, we agreed upon changing our organization name from Senate to HMJK.

Okay, I've had three weeks of three-month holiday so far. I'm quite satisfied with how I spent my holiday, but I don't think I've been spending it effectively. I've continued what I've left when I entered MedSchool at UPH, I've helped my dad with several things and I've done several things in regards to HMJK.

During the first two weeks, I was basically trying to settle things up. Tidying HMJK room, tried to read a few pages about Neurology (next block's topic) and such (not ready to talk about it). This week I helped my dad with his business (marketing stuff) and learned a few things from it, and will continue it next week. Am really trying to read a few pages of Neuro each day, but it seems hard yet have to force myself!

Well ummm, I was quite happy this week. Some things have been going on and wasn't really expecting it to happen, but because it did, should be the best for me. By the way, I don't know am I supposed to be happy or should I regret that I didn't join my friends to Bali. I -really- wanted to go, but due to a reasons, I didn't. One of which is because my mom and my auntie (mami) didn't allow me and my sister's high school graduation was on the 27th (I knew that like on the 26th). Maybe I'm simply making excuses because one of my friend joined them for only a few days, then she headed back home. But well, maybe this is the best for me, I hope so.

I've made another important decision as well, that I'm resigning from Mentoring UPH 2010 due to a few reasons. I've thought about this over and over again, and I think this is probably the best, taking in mind what happened last year due to my participation in Mentoring UPH 2009. I really hope that I won't regret this because I think what I'm taking account of is probably more important than joining this year's mentoring. I've spoken to my mentor and she said that if I've thought about this and I'm sure of my decision, then I should go for it. One or two of my friends were quite surprised that I'm resigning from this year's mentoring, but then they said that if I think it's the best, then I should be confident in my decision.

Guess back to this three-month holiday. I have to cut one month off it because I have to study Clinical Skill again. I'm trying my best to think of it as my second chance to improve. Haven't talk to my parents about it yet coz I'm kind of scared with their response later on although my dad will probably understand more than my mom. I'm just waiting for the right time to talk about this with him coz he's been quite stressed out with work.

I guess this is it, I'll probably continue to the next post. Tadaaaa :)