not-so-sure-but-yet-satisfying

so happy and satisfied coz i graduated high school yesterday.. then we head towards Eastern to eat lunch with my art bio friends. actually, not all of my art bio friends joined us for lunch. only meiling, ames, marsha, joe, lusi, verni and myself.. like mira went somewhere (possibly went home) with her parents, then alyssa is somewhere (i think megamall) with melissa, christy went to i-dont-know, then martin went to supermall.. soooo yeah..

after that lunch gathering, we went to senayan city to watch enchanted.. but because it started very late at about 16.50 so we decided to walk around the mall first, not actually "around" the mall, but we went to metrox, topshop then towards the theatre. well i got home at about 8, i think.. coz i had to be picked up by my dad first near lusi's house..

i can't believe either that i was very very sleepy at about 11, i mean i'm usually sleepy at about 12 or 12.30.. it's just unusual. then i woke up at about 7.45 this morning haha then daily stuff i used to do..

well now i'm in the school's library, just doing nothing coz my mom was mad and all that coz the driver needs to drop my other car to "bengkel" to get something fixed or whatever it needs haha sooo here i am.

i actually need to be in binus at about 11.40 coz i'll start taking teachers' pictures at about 11.50, starting with national curriculum teachers.. ssooo, i'm soo sleepy T.T

at least i don't have to go to school, but still have narnia rehearsal today.. then 2moro we'll rehearse at GKJ, then the performance is on thursday, twice.. kinda looking forward and kinda nervous about it. i mean i'm just afraid that something will go wrong *well i hope not* but who knows.. things might happen..

not-sure

didn't go to my dad's office to work yesterday coz not of the fact that i was lazy and i guess there was none that i can do there.. well i did something at home, something important to me.. sewing so-called circular white gems, rectangular turqoise gems and light blue gems to my prom dress.. yuppp it's almost finished. it's actually finished but my mom said that there are still lots of gems left so i might want to use some of it again for the bottom part of the dress.. well that is it then..

as usual, on wednesdays, i had narnia rehearsal from 1.30 pm. but bcoz it's like a week before the "day", we had to rehearse until 7.. luckily "bald-head" was in a good mood.. so he made us choose between 2 options, either order food and go home at 7 or continue with the simultaneous reheasal made as if it is the real performance and go home at 6.. of course we chose that 2nd option.. but at the end we went home at about 6.20. it's wayyy better than at 7..

so i'm actually reading through and studying those r-biopharm clinical diagnostics products.. the one my dad is importing.. he said i have to read all those details (how to use, why, what the "thing" we are testing etc) sooo because i will have about 6-7 months of free time, so i'll have plenty of time to study those kits and to kind of selling it to people, or doctors/hospitals, actually.. well today i gotta go at about 1 coz the yr 12s are gonna have graduation rehearsal at 2.30 today.. graduation is now like in front of us!! this coming monday, oh my goodness!! then we'll have narnia practice.. then performance is next wednesday and thursday..

okay.. gotta go back to work =)

oh-so-great

well, school's over.. i mean.. no more breach coz of late.. and no more listening to "mr boring" (u know who, 12 art bio students). but something seems be missing. i mean all these days, i had to wake up in the morning, meet my friends, start my day by going to school, meet teacher etc, but now it's not "school" i'm going to every morning, it's to my dad's office, to help him.. with work and stuff..

well actually my work isn't that difficult.. it's not "work" when u think about it.. i had to scan those brochures not available on net (r-biopharm brochures), print it out to be given to customers so that they are clear what each product is used for. then i am to study each products, how to use it and so on and so on.. i mean it isn't that difficult, but when u're into it for about one week, u know how boring it is.. seems that you're not "working". but at least my dad promised me salary, based on my attendance of course. well besides the fact that i'm using the internet for my personal use (but not that often), i have to manage that "low disk space in C drive" in the computer.. so that we have enough space for some processes to occur. it's kinda hard when you think about it.. coz it's quite difficult to move one program from one place to another, realizing the fact that not all files are able to be moved..

well, think i better go, i need to go to binus.. for narnia of course,, we have rehearsals every day until 7 pm this week. last week we had reheasals everyday until 6.. well it's getting nearer and nearer to the "big day", on the 28th and 29th.. i fitted my costume yesterday coz on friday i was absent.. i was sick actually. i had a really bad flue and cough.. alrite.. better go now.. i'll continue on later of course ^^

soo blueee..

Just can't believe that chemistry tee was hard, harder than final exam.. well it's supposed to be like that.. I mean my friends also said that same thing.. So not in the mood today. but i can't take my hands off chemistry yet, stil have national exams coming up, including physics, chemistry, biology and all those.. for 4 days..

Ahh, stressful week.. honestly, i wasn't able to the calculations part and extended writing.. i'm trying not to think about it.. but i just regret that i wasn't able to do the exam.. i mean it is to get my wacc certificate..

i don't need the certificate, but my parents force me to sit tee.. i feel like crying.. i feel like screaming!!
darnn!!! why is life so hard!? why do i have to take both exams?! studying physics in indonesian is enough for me.. why should i sit tee!? well my parents said i need tee in case i don't pass my national exams.. but pleaseeeee, why can't they just say that i'll pass that exam.. it's like being pesimistic.. fine, yes, i'm also pesimistic actually but they don't have to say that i have to sit tee in case i don't pass national exams..

i'm just hoping that esl exams' gonna be wayyy easier and that i'm able to the exam..
chemistry's over.. not it's esl's turn.. then bio.. and graduation coming up.. but i'll have to face national exams first next week.. honestly, i'm not ready for that. but i was thinking, i'll study all those now altogether for university entrance..

actually i have to study physics using bhs indo, but i'm just stlll pissed off by chemistry.. arghhhhh!!