two thousand fourteen

Three years later from my last post. Wow time flies!

So a little bit of update, I went through my clerkship life at RSPAD for almost two years (19th March 2012 until end of December 2013) then Forensics at RS Polri Kramatjati for 4 weeks. Afterwards, just over half of our batch had exit OSCE exams which was last 11th April. The rest of us wasn't able to sit the exam because they still have clerkship rounds. But then only 44 out of 63 passed the exit OSCE. So we had to do a supplementary OSCE with the remainding students who weren't able to sit the April exam this coming June 20th.

I'd like to express my gratitude to a couple of doctors, nurses and staff, for sharing their knowledge and experience and for their helping hand, kindness and time they had given me when I was thriving clerkship at both RSPAD and RS Polri, especially those who have been my examiner and those who helped me with both my papers and case reports: 

- dr. H SpS, dr. S Sps and dr. L and the neurology department team

- dr. A SpM and dr. E SpM and the ophthalmology department team

- dr. M SpKJ and dr. Y SpKJ and the psychiatry department team

- dr. W SpTHT and the ear, nose and throat department team

- drg. Y and drg. YG and the dentistry department team

- dr. S SpAn, dr. UH SpAn, dr. B SpAn and the anesthesiology department team

- dr. S SpPD, dr. SL SpPD, dr. AP SpPD and the internal medicine department team

- dr. JJE SpOG, dr. SAA SpOG and the obstetrics and gynecology department team

- dr. A SpBP, dr. G SpBP and the surgery department team

- dr. IM SpA, dr. NS and the pediatric department team

And yes, there were a few "undesirable" moments that I wouldn't want to remember, those "ones" and "moments" that if I may say, brought a negative impact to my journey.

So, after we pass exit OSCE from UPH, we're to sit the UKDI CBT and OSCE exam. Those who passed the April exit OSCE, will proceed to this upcoming May's UKDI, while those sitting the June exit OSCE will sit the August's UKDI. Then we have internship for one year. I'm not sure how this actually works, but all I know is that we can choose which area (suburb) we want to intern for 12 months (8 months in type C hospital, then 4 months in Puskesmas). My seniors (2007s) that I know of, some of them are randomly chosen to be placed in Banten, like 30 of them. Some choose Papua and Sulawesi for a particular reason. But for us, it won't be happening in six months' time. Here's why:

A friend of mine sat November 2013's UKDI and should be allocated for internship starting February 2014, however due to some "reasons" regarding "money" so I heard, their internship is postponed to May. But then, a few of them were suddenly informed that they should be starting their internship in a few days time. Yes, shocking news for them. So literally, internship is postponed for 1 cycle. (Normally, UKDI November then internship February. Now UKDI November then internship May).

Another issue also came up around two weeks ago. Those who sat the February UKDI wasn't able to obtain their STR because the exam is "illegal". STR is the certificate we get when we pass UKDI, which we use to get our SIP (permission to open a practice) but now is used as a requirement for internship, so I heard. So a few parties are meeting up to discuss this "problem" and are trying to reach into a solution, in order for the UKDI participant to get their STR and not re-take the UKDI. Meanwhile, the UKDI in May is currently postponed for the moment until further announcement, but they stated that it won't be later than June.

We'll just wait for the announcement and hopefully it does benefit the participants.

second post of the year

Reading my last post made me want to write more although I don't know what to write haha I laughed a bit reading that post coz a few "funny" events happened, and it sure is something that I will always remember :)

So anyways, last night my friends and I were invited to Edlin and Fifi's birthday dinner. It wasn't exactly Edlin's birthday *his birthday wasn't even this month* but I guess they just want tocelebrate it together *awhh so sweet of them*

We talked, laughed and laughed. Basically we spent most of the time laughing of stupid things, one of which was the "3 levels of eagerness to eat" haha *will continue in Indo*

Jd td mlm ada 3 meja shabu2 yg digabung, n 3 lg yg digabung di ruang yg sama.. Nah di meja pnjg prtm kyk dibagi 3 kls (kls adem ayem ato ringan *awalnya yg mkn cm patty+dody+tya*, kls sedang yg mknnya ckup byk tp ga gragas *fifi gw apin ivan*, n kls berat yg mknnya rebut2an, paling ribut deh mejanya *harry anita edlin yona*) dari semua meja, mea mereka paling ribut gara2 rebutan makanan tp akhirnya paling cpt selese smntra meja lain msh nerusin makan smbl smbl ketawain keributan di meja nya kls berat.

Si Anita merasa terancam nyawanya krn saingannya cowo2 smua, yg di mangkok blm abis tp uda ambil lg dari kuali. Jd kalo mau dpt daging, msti rebutan ambilnya, kalo ga ya dptnya sayur haha blm lg si Harry yg "nipu" edlin, dagingnya uda mateng tp si Harry blg "blom mateng itu
mah" jd di balikin, pdhl uda mateng jdnya Harry yg rebut haha bnr2 d, ngakak the whole night.

Plus si Dody yg begitu semangka *kok jd ikutan si CiLay (Tya) sih, emohhh* menceritakan cicinya yg slh paham. Jdnya si Dody pergi dari apartment dia ke Yakoya, tp cicinya slh paham sehingga ksh tau jlnnya ke Pantai Mutiara (bygin, maunya ke JakSel, tp diksh tau jln ke JakUt,
Jakarta yg begitu macetnya tiap Sabtu). Yg bikin ketawa sih pas cicinya blg "ntr ada Harvest, belok kiri.. Slamatttt, smp deh di Pantai Mutiara!!" Parah bnr loh, gw ngakak bnr dgrnya, smp ga bs berhenti ckck uda tng gt, msh ktwa lg klo keinget sm critanya Dodeyyy. Trs blm lg dody blg sepnjg jln dia kesel bgt sm cicinya haha thanks dod for the laugh ^^

Another "kocak" moment jg terjadi. Si Nyak marahhh coz Beben ngerangkul Fifi! Haha ga lah, ga bnr2 marah sih.. Jd kmrn tu Fifi foto sm si Beben, si Beben kebiasaan klo foto tuh ngerangkul org stunya.. Lsg deh kita smua "wahh wahhh cari ribut sm Edlin lu ben! Ga lm kemudian, si Nyak pgn foto megang samurai (diruangan itu ada pajangan samurai gt), kita lsg "waduhhh marah kan, kan.. Ati2 Fi!" Trs nanggepin bcandaanya, fifi lsg ngumpet diblkg edlin haha

Kyknya klo dicritain disini ga sbrp lucu ya haha tp klo di tkp, omg kocak abis!

Oh btw, thanks again to fifi & edlin for the great night & fab all you can eat :) esp for dody, buat critanya yg bkin ngakak, kmrn lg bnr2 butuh ktwa haha hopefully everything will be okay and back to normal ^^

Alrighty right.. Closing the month of January 2011 :)

new year new update :)

Woww.. Finally, a chance and a mood to write again -,-" had been trying to write something like a couple of times, but I just don't seem to have the mood, until now :) so took me half a year to just gain that mood..

Half a year, or 6 months. Many things have happened, of course. Passed two -difficult- blocks for sure, three-week Christmas break, new year and, my **th birthday, youngest sist's, both of my cousins', dad's, mami's, mak's and Winfrey's birthday. There has been ups and downs in family, friends and academically, but all those are now the past.

Maybe I should mark the month of July because well.. something -kind of- unexpected happened, but am very happy about it :) so then, our first day back from the summer holiday was August 16, which was a day before Independence Day.. we were then back to our routine activities..

Perhaps I'll write the rest of this in Indonesian ^^

Okay, sambil nulis sambil mengingat apa lagi yang udah terjadi selama stgh taon ini. skip dulu deh ke desember, bulan exam and my fave month as well :) ga tau knp, desember tu bulan yang penuh memories.. lg berharap jg sih, hari "spesial" bakal bulan desember, but who knows haha

Okay Desember.. hmm pertama kalinya Winfrey ikut EOYP haha but thanks ya :) selesenya sih masih jam 1030an gitu sih, tp Cynthia ngajak potong kue bareng, jd yaaa lanjut deh ke kos2an dia.. trs pada nangkring disana smp 1130 *stgh jam lagi ultahnya Winfrey tp sejujurnya gw dah ngantuk pas itu and pgn plg jg* ga ada rencana apa2 bwt ngerjain dia krn emang preparednya utk bsk paginya (tanpa ramuan)..

trs pas di jln pulang, ngmg sm jeffry, tya, gun dkk, pd blg pake ramuan aja! bingung dah, coz emang ga ada rencana apa2 utk ngerjain pepe *ksian pepe jg.. halah!* lalu.. jam 12 teng, ngucapin happy birthday altho cm di bbm.. oh iya pas eoyp itu, battnya pepe abis -,-" and gw dh mkr "okay, batt dia dah abis, ga bakal baca jam segini" lalu ternyata, dia ngebls.. gw lsg "he? bknnya tadi battnya abis?" gw ga kepikiran klo dia pas dh smp kos lsg ngecharge -,-" lalu ya gitu deh hehehe

pas smp rumah, lsg cari bahan2 bwt ramuan, tepung & telor.. di campur smua ke tempat adonan *ga tau namanya apaan* fast forward aja deh ya hehe tambahin kecap sgla macem.. trs pas di mskkin ke kantong plastik.. duerrrrrr robek bawahnya.. tumpah smua ke lantai -___- *pas itu udah jam 1an*

lsg cari kantong gula yang gde.. lsg ribet di dapur sendirian :( smp jam 2an klo ga slh.. pagi2 jam 445an, dibangunin gara2 dapurnya bau amis gara2 telor.. lsg kebgn ke dapur buat bersihin lagi.. what a tough night! nyiapin kue yang udah di pesen, lsg taro di mbl.. intinya, cm kue yang siap, ramuannya.. total disaster :(

jam 6 teng dah jalan ke karawaci.. coz jam 630 dah janjian sm anak2 bljr brgnya pepe bwt surprisin dia.. smpt jmpt tya dl di kos sih..

and.. pepe susahhh bnr bwt disuruh kluar! agak2 krik2 jg pas ngasih kuenya, cm gw sm pepe doang yg di luar.. pepe ngerasa aneh jg sih, tp yaaa gitu lah.. trs gw bingung bnr gmn cara biar pepe kluar.. trs gw mkr, mnta pepe ambilin stryper deh, blg mau foto brg styper.. altho geje tp ya gmn lagi :( anak2 dh pd ngg diluar..

pas dh kluar, gw mkr, gmn pd tw klo pepe dh kluar.. jdnya sengaja triak "bs ga pe buka mblnya??" lalu crotttt si erwin nyiramin tu ramuan ke pepe, tp pepe berhasil nunduk :( haihhh alhasil kena mbl sebelah.. swift putih!! lsg panik dah, ngebersihin, smp ada yang nyangkut di kaca blkgnya swift pula..

lalu ternyata, baru tau klo cara bkin ramuannya salah *maklum lah amatiran* ternyata harusnya jgn dicampur, tp di lempar masing2 *pantesan* tp ywdah lah yaaa.. pertamax bkin ramuan haha lalu mkn kue dehh..

once again, happy birthday pepe :)


lalu next, the same month jg, desember..

spent the first week of holz di rmh, trs minggu kedua ke bogor for new year celebration with entire fam (yg dr sby dtg ke jkt smua), trs minggu ke3 ke sby bwt lnjt ngumpul2
pas di bgr, ntn match indo vs malay brg2, duhh pgn deh nobar lg :( deg2annya trs ketawa2 brg awhhhh

lalu pas di sby, tiap mlm di lantai kmr mami, maen kartu smbl ntn sinetron *abisnya ga tau lagi mau ntn apaan haha* trs tiap kali maen kartu, psti ktawa2, kdg ktawa gara2 gw "ermm bentar... mmmm mmmm........ *stgh jam kemudian* passs" ya ga smp stgh jam sih, cm ya gt d haha *lebay*

trs pas udah kluarin kartu dengan pede, ternyata salah kluarin kartu "ermm ciee.. kok gini kartunya?" and ternyata yg gw kluarin tuh siki+pair, hrsnya tris+pair haha foolish me -,-"
ngakak lagi..

and yupp tiap kali gw jd bahan ktawaan spupu2 gw kecil2 yang tercinta wahahaha *dibully2 sm anak kecil2 ckck* but it was fun & memorable :)

thennn tgl 9 pun tiba.. hrs balik jakarta :( jam 330 dah bangun and jam 4 dah harus cao ke airport.. jiwa blm terkumpul smua haha trs tiba di airport, msti visit ko2 yang lg di RS coz penyakitnya *sensor* kambuh.. smp jam 11an br balik dr RS.. smp di rmh sgt2 teler, tdr smp jam 2 or 3.. and pagi mesti nyetir ke kampus lagi :(

oh iya, pas di sby, gw potong rambut -finally- haha tgl brp ya, 5 klo ga slh.. kyknya gw ptg rambut emang setaon sekali.. ya abisnya cocoknya cm di salon itu.. di jakarta ga pernah cocok, psti plg2 pgn motong poni lagi biar lebih sesuai sm yang gw mau -___-


oh iyaa.. sbtunya si pepe bli itouch.. plusss dia bikin iriiii, mcm2 lah cara dia bkin iri, sbeelll ckckck jd pengen itouch.. bnrnya emang dah pengen dari pas di bogor, tp krn mkr2 ttg duit yg msh pas2an, diurung dulu deh.. tp duhh pengen bnr hr ni bli itouch :( smoga jadi deh hari ini.. smoga diblhin pergi ntr..

anyways.. hasil nilai obgyn blm kluar.. pada bilang sih kmrn pas jumat hrsnya dah kluar, tp blm pada heboh soal nilai kmrn.. perhaps this week dh di post deh nilainya :)

pbl hemato sm dr. Juli, maya, gocci, juna, apin, febri, adit, jes, tasya mariya, dody ^^
cs smester ini sm ka Nia ^^ dan 8 orang lainnya: edgar, owi, patty, nechan, jep ganjil, ko benz, tuti, sheila :)

and block ini hrs dpt bgs! ckckck hrs rajin blajar.. smntra gw lg nulis blog -,-" rite.. omdo..

ywdah deh, lnjt kpn2 lagi hahaha klo inget ada yg mau dicritain, br update :)

see you alll ^^

consider it.

Some "events" that has happened since the last post made me think about the different point of views that might have to be considered in each "event". The events I'm talking about here is the AL and RG case. AL case has been going on for a few weeks now and RG is a recent one. Not actually the AL case, but A broke one of the R's camera.

These two cases are just examples of many situations which arouse different point of views from both the subject and the public despite that each side might have strong reasons to back him or herself up.

In the first case, neither sides are justified. If AL case didn't exist at the first place, R wouldn't be present at that moment and R's camera wouldn't be broken as well. R's was present because it was his/her job hence to earn money. And why AL case exist? Again, the "victim" has his or her own reason and he or she might not be guilty but not innocent. AL case wouldn't have existed if there were no contribution from "third party" because it wasn't their business, at all. I believe "it" was personal for AL and "it" wasn't expected to cause an issue and not attracting public's attention. But then, regarding AL's status, AL's action isn't justified as well.

In the second case, which happened recently (Saturday night), what AG did surely attract many pros and cons comments and critiques. You can say that the entire world knew what AG did. Many surely tried to think positively although the fact and effect is negative (causal effect). Millions surely talked about it, not to mention that half a page of about 40 pages of this morning's newspaper recalled what happened. If I were AG, I'd be very embarrassed of myself and how it happened will surely stick to me in my entire life. Some say AG's "suit" was probably the reason why it happened. It's simply a human error. Minors said that there isn't any explanation to what happened other than AG wasn't fully concentrated to what AG was doing and people shouldn't blame AG's "suit". Oh well, in every "case", pros and cons will arise from neither side.

These reminded me that in every case, we shouldn't blame one or the other side, but to put ourself in both shoes. What will you feel, do and act if you were A? What will you feel, do and act if you were B? We shouldn't judge just based on what we see (subjectively), but think about all the probabilities in every case. Yes, sometimes it's rather difficult for us to think that way because it is always easier for us to look at the negative side and to critique. It is always difficult to think positively and just to accept what happened.

People make mistakes.

I do, you do, we do and they do. If each and every person thinks negatively and acts based on it, there wouldn't be a year 2010. Okay, that's a little bit exaggerating, but the truth is, we would be living in chaos because none are tolerant, most or every one are selfish and mind others' business in a negative way. There would be no peace.

I want to share this picture:

"We all make mistakes"

Yes, we do. And we should always try to forgive whatever mistake the other side has made. In order to do that, we should try to position ourselves in their position. Did they intend to do it? How would you feel if you were them? Would you be able to easily "apologize" or would you feel this guilt that you're afraid he or she wouldn't forgive you?

Sometimes it just feel right that you (the correct side) make that first move to simply make "it" clear between you and the other side, to simply ask for their reasons to what they did. A simple and short talk with the "guilty" side may be quite hard for you, may be because you don't think it's necessary and when they're "sentenced" guilty, there is nothing they can say to make them become innocent. That, in fact, isn't what it's about. It's simply how you try to eliminate any hatred or "dislikes" in between the two sides. When things are clear and that you know their reasons, or pros and cons, you will be glad to be able just come up with a satisfying conclusion between the two sides.

But again, yes..

It's difficult, but not impossible.

life.karma.dream

Currently, several things are in my mind. Thus, I decided to write again although yesterday I just wrote one.

Life's been a roller coaster.

Specially for the last twelve months. I don't know if this is karma. Do you believe in karma?

Karma.

According to Princeton, Karma is "the effects of a person's actions that determine his destiny in his next incarnation".

Found this image on net:

Based on the above definition, you can say that karma is "an eye for an eye", which is that everyone else will treat you the way you treat others. Thus if you want people to treat you appropriately, then treat them appropriately first.

It's based on personal experience? Perhaps.

I've regretted several things that I've done in the past, really "the past". Not just the last 12 months, but for the last several years of my life.

Family issue? Maybe.

Academic issue? Maybe.

Love issue? Maybe.

Life issue? Maybe.

I've been trying my best to make things better -in a way-. But I guess it isn't as simple as I thought it'd be. I believe that Karma will stick to you for a life time.

In the past, I've made several "foolish" decisions and actions. I regret that I didn't thought about it over and over again before I took those steps. And yes, you can say that I am poor in experience, very poor. Then comes the "cause and effect" thing. I had to take steps that I didn't have to do if I wasn't that foolish. I'm not saying that I'm now mature and ALL my decisions are all correct and justified, but I think that I've thought about most of the steps that I took, and if I do regret, it will may be just a "slight" regret but I certainly hope I wouldn't.

I guess -probably- karma is into me now, due to one of my steps in the past. Some say (including me) I shouldn't regret about it because it was part of my journey of life, but some say, I should have think twice about it. But whatever, it has happened and now it's karma. I simply hope that it will end soon although I did say that karma is for a life time, but I really hope this karma will end soon, I mean I really want this to work. Don't know and don't really believe that it will end soon, but it's okay to hope, I suppose?

I really want this to work. Please. Pretty please.

Yet, it's again up to Him. If He wants it to happen, it will happen, some way and some day. Kept on thinking that He wants me to go through all this. Times when I was very happy and times when I am down, really down there, lost in my unconsciousness. As if all those was simply a beautiful dream that I can't get reach of.

I'd like to share this song, "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood, below is its lyrics so that you can sing along. Hope you enjoy ^^

It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
All dressed in white, goin' to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Six pins in her shoe, somethin' borrowed, somethin' blue

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down, tryin' to hide the tears
Oh, she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

The preacher man said, "Let's bow our heads and pray
Lord, please lift his soul and heal this hurt"
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard

And then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, well, what could've been?
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Ooh, baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, I'll never know

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
It's just a dream, yeah, yeah

another half

Okay, so my previous post was simply an update and I wasn't quite finished "telling my story". Anyways, about HMJK -first- meeting. Maybe I should introduce the HMJK 2010-2011 members.


1st row: Yonathan Djaja, Kristina Astuti Winarto, Pamella Djakaria, Elvira, Oki Yonathan Oetiono, Gregory Joey, Admiral Zega, Riki Saputra, Tommy Mandagi, Victor, Adrian Gunawan Ali
2nd row: Audrey Budiono, Anita Darmawijaya, Sheila Stephanie Chandra, Lydia Linggawaty, Oei Kristina Hariyani Wijaya Pratikno, Viona Tjin, Glory Takizawa, Fediah Iskandar, Jessica Wangsa, Patriscia Tanuwijaya, Clarissa Natashia Sadikin
3rd row: Cynthia Christine Jonachan, Aliyya Rifki, Nesa Kusuma, Dian Yosie Monica, Melissa Ayu, Aryani Sutarnio, Cindy Prayogo, Cynthia Sabrina, Lady Anjani
4th row: Yuricho Alexander Yogianto, Jonny Wijaya, Bobtriyan Tanamas, Dyka Wihardjo (ME!!)

I can say that I'm quite satisfied with this year's HMJK members, maybe more satisfied than last year's, but I think I can't say that yet coz we just had our first meeting and we haven't hosted any events yet. Maybe it's more appropriate to comment on it later.

So we've planned several events throughout this one year period, coming soon is Welcoming Party for class of 2010 and Outbound. Perhaps I'll talk more about this after the details of these two events have been published.

As some might know, I'm the Chief of Media & Communication Division, same position as in the previous senate. Speaking of "senate", we changed our organization from Senate to HMJK (Himpuanan Mahasiswa Jurusan Kedokteran, or Medical Students Association of UPH). It was basically due to "member recruitment issue". If we stayed wtih "Senate", then we should -have- recruited students from SON (School of Nursing). After we had quite a long discussion, we agreed upon changing our organization name from Senate to HMJK.

Okay, I've had three weeks of three-month holiday so far. I'm quite satisfied with how I spent my holiday, but I don't think I've been spending it effectively. I've continued what I've left when I entered MedSchool at UPH, I've helped my dad with several things and I've done several things in regards to HMJK.

During the first two weeks, I was basically trying to settle things up. Tidying HMJK room, tried to read a few pages about Neurology (next block's topic) and such (not ready to talk about it). This week I helped my dad with his business (marketing stuff) and learned a few things from it, and will continue it next week. Am really trying to read a few pages of Neuro each day, but it seems hard yet have to force myself!

Well ummm, I was quite happy this week. Some things have been going on and wasn't really expecting it to happen, but because it did, should be the best for me. By the way, I don't know am I supposed to be happy or should I regret that I didn't join my friends to Bali. I -really- wanted to go, but due to a reasons, I didn't. One of which is because my mom and my auntie (mami) didn't allow me and my sister's high school graduation was on the 27th (I knew that like on the 26th). Maybe I'm simply making excuses because one of my friend joined them for only a few days, then she headed back home. But well, maybe this is the best for me, I hope so.

I've made another important decision as well, that I'm resigning from Mentoring UPH 2010 due to a few reasons. I've thought about this over and over again, and I think this is probably the best, taking in mind what happened last year due to my participation in Mentoring UPH 2009. I really hope that I won't regret this because I think what I'm taking account of is probably more important than joining this year's mentoring. I've spoken to my mentor and she said that if I've thought about this and I'm sure of my decision, then I should go for it. One or two of my friends were quite surprised that I'm resigning from this year's mentoring, but then they said that if I think it's the best, then I should be confident in my decision.

Guess back to this three-month holiday. I have to cut one month off it because I have to study Clinical Skill again. I'm trying my best to think of it as my second chance to improve. Haven't talk to my parents about it yet coz I'm kind of scared with their response later on although my dad will probably understand more than my mom. I'm just waiting for the right time to talk about this with him coz he's been quite stressed out with work.

I guess this is it, I'll probably continue to the next post. Tadaaaa :)

still half

After a long -very long- break from writing, I'm finally able to find a free time to write. Yeyy! Several things happened in the last 1.5 month. Endocrine block, exams, first HMJK meeting and a week of holiday has given my life more ups and downs. Honestly, I don’t know where to start. Maybe I’ll just start with exam week coz that’s probably almost everyone’s highlight before the three-month holiday.

So, it was planned that class of 2008 will have 7 exams. Yup, you heard me. That includes Clinical Exposure and OSCE during the first week, and followed by Learning and Communication Skills (LCOM), MCQ Endocrine, DPES, OSPE and Comprehensive exam the week after. However, along the way, they cancelled DPES exam. My LCOM class have had exam before the exam week because ours was to make a presentation, it may be about whatever we studied during Pak Christian Siregar’s class, or we may come up with another topic relating to his class.

Clinical Exposure –essay– exam was hmm okay. Got the information that the questions are going to be about application problems, but turned out that it was mostly theory. Not quite sure about the result, though, because I wasn’t able to do the first 3 questions out of 10.

Yes, OSCE exam was the last exam of the week (on Friday). I was in the second out of five rounds. Turned out to be just okay because I wasn’t able to finish Physical Examination station. I don’t know whether the office boy wasn’t being consistent or I didn’t study well for PE part, but I ran though the special tests for appendicitis, which is medical term for inflammation of the appendix, and it was all negative. He only said “it hurts” when I was palpating on his epigastric, maybe early signs of appendicitis? From these 4 semesters, PE station cases were always different from one patient to the other. I mean, if they’re all different, the examiner should have different marking guide? But that’ll mean it wasn’t a “standard” for us, then? I think I should’ve asked the examiner post-exam, but never did, oh well.

MCQ Endocrine was okay although I studied diagnosis and treatment while the questions were mostly of pathophysiology. It simply means I have to study more and more, not only certain topics. Last two MCQ exams, which were Gastrointestinal and Genitourinary, the questions were mostly about diagnosis and treatment, so I assumed that Endocrine exams were mostly about both of them as well. Oh well, taking the positive side, He wants me to study more to become a better doctor.

DPES exam was cancelled and we got that information when we were sitting MCQ Endocrine. Right. Some were done and were sitting on the sofa outside the two exam rooms though. Anyways, heard that some had studied for DPES and they were both disappointed and happy at the same time. If I were them, of course I’d feel the same thing. I mean, I’ve allocated my time to study DPES, but hours –not days– before the exam it was cancelled. We were wondering, though, about the score because we only had one assignment which was making a script for role play and that’s it. I guess our score will be from that one assignment? Oh well, whatever it is.

OSPE and Comprehensive exam fell on the same day, the last day of the exam before holiday. I was in the last group of OSPE exam and it turned out to be better than other OSPE exam, I think, because I was able to answer more questions than previous OSPEs, but yet again, my weakness is in Anatomical Pathology (PA).

Okay, last exam was Comprehensive exam. Unlike last year’s, I was able to do more questions and I was more confident than last year’s although I know my score wouldn’t be very satisfying. If I had more time to study, maybe I’ll be way sure about it. But yet again, it was my fault that I didn’t study hard since third semester. I didn’t use my time wisely at home. I chose to sleep when I should’ve at least read something.

Yes, REGRETS COME AT THE END.

Right, just realized I didn’t mention about my grandparent’s 50^th  anniversary. 50 years! I sure hope that I’ll have one as well, the question is, who doesn’t? So yes, we had a private party. Only my big family, my granny’s cousins and granpa’s brother and sister, and two of my mom’s close friends. This is why we have parties like this, I met one of my mom’s distant cousin for the first time in my life -20 years-. My grandpa’s brother and sister were quite surprised to meet me because I changed quite a lot since they last saw me, which was maybe around 10 years ago.

A few of my granny’s cousins (ie po) were also quite surprised to see me and yes, most of them say “Wow, you sure look beautiful now. You look quite different compared to when you were small.” And yes, I know they meant to say “You were ugly when you were small”. Yes, yes, I get it, ie po, thank you for the compliment now :)

We had fun those two days, so does everyone especially my grandparents and mom’s oldest younger brother. Never seen him very happy that he clapped his hands and laughed while my mom and the other women danced because he’s quite awkward, you can say. He only smiles probably during photo session and as far as I know, that was the first time I saw him clap his hands.

A bit of flashback, my mom had the honor to lead us in prayer for lunch. Okay, I’m easily touched. So yes, my tears did flow a little bit while I listen to my mom’s prayer word by word. I wish we can all have more chances to gather together again and have fun. Heard from my mami that all ie po have gathered together in Trawas, maybe just to have fun because speaking of age, they’re now in their 70s and 80s, I think. By the way, my ie po’s are from Bandung, Malang, Hong Kong and Australia, if I’m not mistaken. So whenever they’re able to gather, it’s really a gift from Him.

 

Inez, Brenda, Ie Po Liem, Ngkim Maria, Mami Hermin, Kulik Harry, Mak, Me, Ci Felicia, Cely, Ie Po Lu, Ie Po Ting
--- January 2010

Okay, forward to the present time. We had first HMJK meeting, which mainly discusses all the events or programs planned by each division. Fairly packed two-day meeting, but we did have fun.

Think I'll talk more about this later on :) I have several other things to tell but think I'll spill it out in the next post.