from Germany, with love (part 1)

So here we go. November 10th, 2014.

We had a short transit at Kuala Lumpur around 11.30ish local time just for about 15 minutes. Then we board into the airplane again, sat at the same seat as the trip to KL. It was quite a long journey, about 13 hours, but I managed to stay put. Actually I tried to sleep but I can't, but in the end, I slept for about 3 hours. We were served one meal, one snack (it was so-so), and was offered drinks twice (tea, coffee, water).

We arrived at Frankfurt Airport at 07.30, boy, it was still quite dark, seems like still 05.45 in the morning, and not to mention, freezing cold. Before we landed, we put on long john shirt, then when we landed Mom had us to put on "long john"s pants inside the jeans we were wearing, honestly I don't know what "long john"s actually meant. But it was warmer afterwards.

We were confused at first at finding our way to the baggage claim. Dad almost led us the wrong way (he was following the crowd of people towards somewhere I don't really notice), but we managed to find our way. Baggage claim was one level down, they had us going down the escalator near the exit from the boarding gates. It was quite easy to find actually. And we were one of the few people who were actually down there waiting for the baggage. It wasn't more than about 15 minutes that we had our luggage packed onto the trolley (we had to deposit 2 euros to use the trolley) and then headed to the exit to find the train towards Frankfurt Hauptbahnhof (meaning Frankfurt Central Station). We had to go down one more level to the train area to "register" train tickets from the "DB" counter, then again down one level to wait for the train. All these time me and dad were trying to find sim card, but wasn't successful. Arriving at the train area, there was one train waiting to depart, but the doors were soon closed. We thought it was departing like in one second, so we thought the next train was okay. But it didn't depart until like 1 minute afterwards, and few people who came after us pushed the red button on the sides of the train door, and the door just opened. We were like "huh? The door can be opened?". We though it was like the train doors in Singapore, when it was shut, we should just back off from the door and wait for the next train to arrive. So that was epic. People in the train were like staring at us. Okay, I was quite embarrassed.

And so, we took the next train. Mom carried the big luggage, dad had 1 big and another small luggage, and I had 1 small luggage. Okay, it wasn't fair. Anyways. Haha. On the next train, mom made sure that we were on the right one. Then the train had some issues (I don't understand what they said in the announcement) that the train had to stop. After the announcement, people around us were like "what??" And some drop jaw, but we were like showing no expressions, just flat. Epic. We were soon on the way again after like 10-15 minutes and stopped in about 3-4 stations.

Okay, Frankfurt was freezing. It was like 7 or 8 degrees. Mom and I also put on those thick parachute-material jackets so my body was warm, but my fingers were like ice. We arrived at Frankfurt Hauptbahnhof, about 2 levels below ground. At ground level, the station was huge. My first impression was, "okay, this is like Harry Potter train station" and I imagined my friend, Cynthia's face. The station had around 20 platforms, McDonald's in one side, then one or two stop-by bakery/coffee shops, a book store, a confectionery store, etc. Like in the movies.

And so we headed to the hotel, we didn't think about finding our hotel in the map and so we were kind of lost in front of the station, but we found a small map of the central station with anything around I-don't-know km radius, and with my map skills (quite proud of myself), we were in the right way. We had to cross 3 streets, it took around 10 minutes to the hotel.

Hotel lobby was small, but it had all it needs for a lobby. Yes we were early (we arrived at 9am) and our room wasn't ready yet so the reception gave us a complimentary drink while we wait. And something happened, my eyes were uncomfortable and hurt so I had to go to the toilet to see what's wrong and took one pair of fresh softlens. Turned out that it was time to change them because after I changed them, my eyes were "relieved". When I got back to the reception area, mom was gone (as usual, she always wants to be the first, doesn't want to wait), only dad was waiting for me, with my bag and jacket.

We headed up to our room and boy we were relieved that we had arrived, safe and sound. But then we prepared our things to make a short (short as in 2 hour train) to Koln (or Cologne), mom said that there was a nice cathedral there and we would have lunch there as well. So we took of the next train (around 12 or 1pm), then arrived at Koln Dom to find that that day was Koln Carnival. We had two plates of roasted duck noodle, which turned out to be enough for the three of us. All people seemed to gather there dressed up in different costumes (sailors, nurses, Romans, football players, etc). We didn't realize it was Koln Carnival until my sister who was currently in Singapore, told us in Whatsapp. We weren't able to explore the inside of Koln Dom due to renovation if I'm not mistaken. So we just spent around 30 minutes then headed back to Frankfurt to rest to prepare for the 4-day Medica 2014 in Messe Nord, Dusseldorf.

a little note

Ears

• Small: honor, manners, affection
• Ears too small: shyness and reserve
• Medium ears show energy and determination.
• Ears long and narrow: these qualities increase.
• Earlobe thicker, the force of lived feelings is increased.
• Big ears: thick earlobe show rudeness and materialism.
• Normal ears: do not pass the height above or below the eyebrows and nose.
• Ears get over eyebrows: angry character, vindictive and crimincal tendencies.
• Ears with detached earlobes from head: generosity and free spirit.
• Earlobes closed to the head: contrast from it.
• Distanced ears show cruelty destruction desire.
• Large distance between eyes and ears: intellectual capacity and talent.
• Vertical ears show strength, courage, energy, power.

  

Forehead

• Little wide and high forehead well shaped eyebrows: most desirable, prospect of permanent success.
• Low and wide forehead: intuitive nature, endowed with natural skill and imagination, spontaneity, spirit will shine. More interested on impressions than knowledge gained through study.
• Square forehead: honesty, sincerity.
• Loosing forehead: lack of intelligence.
• High brow: aptitude for study, diligent, trained, reach success.
• Straight eyebrows: increase these qualities.
• Forehead with deep lines (wrinkles): indulge in contemplation and research.
• Vertical lines (wrinkles) between eyes show power of concentration
• Head without lines: cold, selfishness, lack of empathy and sarcasm.

  

Eyebrows

Curved:

• mental focus is people-oriented
• connect & relate to world best through understanding people
• sometimes you can understand an idea/theory better if it is explained to you in personal example/experience

Straight:

• direct & factual approach, technical details
• logic, need to be shows all facts & data before accepting something as true
• mentally evaluate hard facts without letting emotion effect judgement

Angled:

• stay mentally in control of any situation
• gregarious and expansive: good leadership qualities, people will challenge your authority
• you like to be right and usually are, conscientiously  “done your homework”
• stay mentally

High eyebrows:

• discerning, selective, discriminating
• need time to observe and work out ideas conpletely before acting
• protect yourself with wait-and-see approach
• need time to put new information for you to understand how you feel about the subject and how parts relate to the whole
• store information with emotional tab, recalling the feeling, often recall event with surprising clarity
• detest being put on the spot to make a snap assessment or to make decision about something new before you have had time to reflect on it and understand

Low eyebrows:

• expressive, quick to take action, process information quickly
• you want to get the job done and do it now
• may have tendency to interrupt others when they seem too slow to speak because you can often anticipate what they are going to say before they have finished saying it
• initially optimistic but may become antagonistic if criticized
• challenge is to develop more patience with others who don’t have your gift of mental quickness

Bushy:

• mentally active, full of thoughts, ideas
• powerful intellect
• non-stop thinker

Thin (pencil-like):

• single-minded, focus on one thing at a time
• overly sensitive to how you imagine others see you
• probably think they are more critical than they really are
• overly self-conscious

Winged (thick at beginning, thinner at ends):

• need being on the planning committee
• love coming up with big, new ideas
• visionary approach allows you to create exciting new plans, but challenge is with follow-through
• delegate details to someone else to free yourself up to focus on your grand vision

Even (same thickness throughout length):

• thoughts flow smoothly, evenly, easily grasp whole concept
• develop a tolerance for other’s people difficulty with detail
• rest of the world may seem slow or even unable to fully comprehed ideas

Managerial(thin at beginning, thicker at outer edges):

• slow to start something new, but once accepted, you have great follow-through
• mentally tidy, well-organized, methodical, do wel in any roles that requires attention to detail and completion

Continuous/uni-brow:

• thoughts are continuous and restless
• if you have problems, may have trouble sleeping because can’t stop thinking

Tangled hairs:

• unconventional thinker whose thought range over many areas
• ability to see all sides of an issue, may enjoy playing devil’s advocate to discover hidden truths
• may also attract unwanted conflict

Access hairs (hairs growing straight up at beginning):

• strong connection between inner feelings and logical thinking
• ability to be aware of potential problems immediately
• right side: spot problems in business and public area
• left: anticipate potential problems in relationships

Scattered hairs (single hairs outside of eyebrows):

• curious mind, mentally drawn to many different topics
• each individual hair could almost be read as separate mental interest

Chameleon (nearly invisile eyebrows):

• others may think you are just like them, but you are not
• blend into almost any group, may be talented negotiator because you can extract more information than you reveal

Nose

• Perfect nose: length = width of forehead, end = length of eye
• Aquiline nose: commanding power, determination, pride
• Nose narrow: loose these qualities, replace with tyrannical character
• Straight well-formed nose: patience, kindness, balance, elegance, power to endure, fascination, cold, indifference, liberal ideas in relation to moral & social conventions
• Aquiline nose, tip bent down: melancholy, proud, bold, never be funny, regular sarcasm
• Straight nose, tip bent down: more melancholic, less envious, more lenient than curved nose
• Pointing up high, slightly curved in: enthusiasm, skill, reach goals through cheerful, stylish manner, laugh in defense, implement plan despite obstacles
• Snub nose: tendency to dominance, lack of elegance & behavior in life, can be accompanied by literary and poetic power
• Curved nose: sharpness, very little curiosity, quarrelsome
• Thin lips & mouth, bent edges: gossipy

Cheeks

• Meaty/fleshy: special sensitivity, artistic interest
• Weak and narrow: may have concerns or mystery that wishes to hide
• Too round & full: spiritual innocence

two thousand fourteen

Three years later from my last post. Wow time flies!

So a little bit of update, I went through my clerkship life at RSPAD for almost two years (19th March 2012 until end of December 2013) then Forensics at RS Polri Kramatjati for 4 weeks. Afterwards, just over half of our batch had exit OSCE exams which was last 11th April. The rest of us wasn't able to sit the exam because they still have clerkship rounds. But then only 44 out of 63 passed the exit OSCE. So we had to do a supplementary OSCE with the remainding students who weren't able to sit the April exam this coming June 20th.

I'd like to express my gratitude to a couple of doctors, nurses and staff, for sharing their knowledge and experience and for their helping hand, kindness and time they had given me when I was thriving clerkship at both RSPAD and RS Polri, especially those who have been my examiner and those who helped me with both my papers and case reports: 

- dr. H SpS, dr. S Sps and dr. L and the neurology department team

- dr. A SpM and dr. E SpM and the ophthalmology department team

- dr. M SpKJ and dr. Y SpKJ and the psychiatry department team

- dr. W SpTHT and the ear, nose and throat department team

- drg. Y and drg. YG and the dentistry department team

- dr. S SpAn, dr. UH SpAn, dr. B SpAn and the anesthesiology department team

- dr. S SpPD, dr. SL SpPD, dr. AP SpPD and the internal medicine department team

- dr. JJE SpOG, dr. SAA SpOG and the obstetrics and gynecology department team

- dr. A SpBP, dr. G SpBP and the surgery department team

- dr. IM SpA, dr. NS and the pediatric department team

And yes, there were a few "undesirable" moments that I wouldn't want to remember, those "ones" and "moments" that if I may say, brought a negative impact to my journey.

So, after we pass exit OSCE from UPH, we're to sit the UKDI CBT and OSCE exam. Those who passed the April exit OSCE, will proceed to this upcoming May's UKDI, while those sitting the June exit OSCE will sit the August's UKDI. Then we have internship for one year. I'm not sure how this actually works, but all I know is that we can choose which area (suburb) we want to intern for 12 months (8 months in type C hospital, then 4 months in Puskesmas). My seniors (2007s) that I know of, some of them are randomly chosen to be placed in Banten, like 30 of them. Some choose Papua and Sulawesi for a particular reason. But for us, it won't be happening in six months' time. Here's why:

A friend of mine sat November 2013's UKDI and should be allocated for internship starting February 2014, however due to some "reasons" regarding "money" so I heard, their internship is postponed to May. But then, a few of them were suddenly informed that they should be starting their internship in a few days time. Yes, shocking news for them. So literally, internship is postponed for 1 cycle. (Normally, UKDI November then internship February. Now UKDI November then internship May).

Another issue also came up around two weeks ago. Those who sat the February UKDI wasn't able to obtain their STR because the exam is "illegal". STR is the certificate we get when we pass UKDI, which we use to get our SIP (permission to open a practice) but now is used as a requirement for internship, so I heard. So a few parties are meeting up to discuss this "problem" and are trying to reach into a solution, in order for the UKDI participant to get their STR and not re-take the UKDI. Meanwhile, the UKDI in May is currently postponed for the moment until further announcement, but they stated that it won't be later than June.

We'll just wait for the announcement and hopefully it does benefit the participants.

second post of the year

Reading my last post made me want to write more although I don't know what to write haha I laughed a bit reading that post coz a few "funny" events happened, and it sure is something that I will always remember :)

So anyways, last night my friends and I were invited to Edlin and Fifi's birthday dinner. It wasn't exactly Edlin's birthday *his birthday wasn't even this month* but I guess they just want tocelebrate it together *awhh so sweet of them*

We talked, laughed and laughed. Basically we spent most of the time laughing of stupid things, one of which was the "3 levels of eagerness to eat" haha *will continue in Indo*

Jd td mlm ada 3 meja shabu2 yg digabung, n 3 lg yg digabung di ruang yg sama.. Nah di meja pnjg prtm kyk dibagi 3 kls (kls adem ayem ato ringan *awalnya yg mkn cm patty+dody+tya*, kls sedang yg mknnya ckup byk tp ga gragas *fifi gw apin ivan*, n kls berat yg mknnya rebut2an, paling ribut deh mejanya *harry anita edlin yona*) dari semua meja, mea mereka paling ribut gara2 rebutan makanan tp akhirnya paling cpt selese smntra meja lain msh nerusin makan smbl smbl ketawain keributan di meja nya kls berat.

Si Anita merasa terancam nyawanya krn saingannya cowo2 smua, yg di mangkok blm abis tp uda ambil lg dari kuali. Jd kalo mau dpt daging, msti rebutan ambilnya, kalo ga ya dptnya sayur haha blm lg si Harry yg "nipu" edlin, dagingnya uda mateng tp si Harry blg "blom mateng itu
mah" jd di balikin, pdhl uda mateng jdnya Harry yg rebut haha bnr2 d, ngakak the whole night.

Plus si Dody yg begitu semangka *kok jd ikutan si CiLay (Tya) sih, emohhh* menceritakan cicinya yg slh paham. Jdnya si Dody pergi dari apartment dia ke Yakoya, tp cicinya slh paham sehingga ksh tau jlnnya ke Pantai Mutiara (bygin, maunya ke JakSel, tp diksh tau jln ke JakUt,
Jakarta yg begitu macetnya tiap Sabtu). Yg bikin ketawa sih pas cicinya blg "ntr ada Harvest, belok kiri.. Slamatttt, smp deh di Pantai Mutiara!!" Parah bnr loh, gw ngakak bnr dgrnya, smp ga bs berhenti ckck uda tng gt, msh ktwa lg klo keinget sm critanya Dodeyyy. Trs blm lg dody blg sepnjg jln dia kesel bgt sm cicinya haha thanks dod for the laugh ^^

Another "kocak" moment jg terjadi. Si Nyak marahhh coz Beben ngerangkul Fifi! Haha ga lah, ga bnr2 marah sih.. Jd kmrn tu Fifi foto sm si Beben, si Beben kebiasaan klo foto tuh ngerangkul org stunya.. Lsg deh kita smua "wahh wahhh cari ribut sm Edlin lu ben! Ga lm kemudian, si Nyak pgn foto megang samurai (diruangan itu ada pajangan samurai gt), kita lsg "waduhhh marah kan, kan.. Ati2 Fi!" Trs nanggepin bcandaanya, fifi lsg ngumpet diblkg edlin haha

Kyknya klo dicritain disini ga sbrp lucu ya haha tp klo di tkp, omg kocak abis!

Oh btw, thanks again to fifi & edlin for the great night & fab all you can eat :) esp for dody, buat critanya yg bkin ngakak, kmrn lg bnr2 butuh ktwa haha hopefully everything will be okay and back to normal ^^

Alrighty right.. Closing the month of January 2011 :)

new year new update :)

Woww.. Finally, a chance and a mood to write again -,-" had been trying to write something like a couple of times, but I just don't seem to have the mood, until now :) so took me half a year to just gain that mood..

Half a year, or 6 months. Many things have happened, of course. Passed two -difficult- blocks for sure, three-week Christmas break, new year and, my **th birthday, youngest sist's, both of my cousins', dad's, mami's, mak's and Winfrey's birthday. There has been ups and downs in family, friends and academically, but all those are now the past.

Maybe I should mark the month of July because well.. something -kind of- unexpected happened, but am very happy about it :) so then, our first day back from the summer holiday was August 16, which was a day before Independence Day.. we were then back to our routine activities..

Perhaps I'll write the rest of this in Indonesian ^^

Okay, sambil nulis sambil mengingat apa lagi yang udah terjadi selama stgh taon ini. skip dulu deh ke desember, bulan exam and my fave month as well :) ga tau knp, desember tu bulan yang penuh memories.. lg berharap jg sih, hari "spesial" bakal bulan desember, but who knows haha

Okay Desember.. hmm pertama kalinya Winfrey ikut EOYP haha but thanks ya :) selesenya sih masih jam 1030an gitu sih, tp Cynthia ngajak potong kue bareng, jd yaaa lanjut deh ke kos2an dia.. trs pada nangkring disana smp 1130 *stgh jam lagi ultahnya Winfrey tp sejujurnya gw dah ngantuk pas itu and pgn plg jg* ga ada rencana apa2 bwt ngerjain dia krn emang preparednya utk bsk paginya (tanpa ramuan)..

trs pas di jln pulang, ngmg sm jeffry, tya, gun dkk, pd blg pake ramuan aja! bingung dah, coz emang ga ada rencana apa2 utk ngerjain pepe *ksian pepe jg.. halah!* lalu.. jam 12 teng, ngucapin happy birthday altho cm di bbm.. oh iya pas eoyp itu, battnya pepe abis -,-" and gw dh mkr "okay, batt dia dah abis, ga bakal baca jam segini" lalu ternyata, dia ngebls.. gw lsg "he? bknnya tadi battnya abis?" gw ga kepikiran klo dia pas dh smp kos lsg ngecharge -,-" lalu ya gitu deh hehehe

pas smp rumah, lsg cari bahan2 bwt ramuan, tepung & telor.. di campur smua ke tempat adonan *ga tau namanya apaan* fast forward aja deh ya hehe tambahin kecap sgla macem.. trs pas di mskkin ke kantong plastik.. duerrrrrr robek bawahnya.. tumpah smua ke lantai -___- *pas itu udah jam 1an*

lsg cari kantong gula yang gde.. lsg ribet di dapur sendirian :( smp jam 2an klo ga slh.. pagi2 jam 445an, dibangunin gara2 dapurnya bau amis gara2 telor.. lsg kebgn ke dapur buat bersihin lagi.. what a tough night! nyiapin kue yang udah di pesen, lsg taro di mbl.. intinya, cm kue yang siap, ramuannya.. total disaster :(

jam 6 teng dah jalan ke karawaci.. coz jam 630 dah janjian sm anak2 bljr brgnya pepe bwt surprisin dia.. smpt jmpt tya dl di kos sih..

and.. pepe susahhh bnr bwt disuruh kluar! agak2 krik2 jg pas ngasih kuenya, cm gw sm pepe doang yg di luar.. pepe ngerasa aneh jg sih, tp yaaa gitu lah.. trs gw bingung bnr gmn cara biar pepe kluar.. trs gw mkr, mnta pepe ambilin stryper deh, blg mau foto brg styper.. altho geje tp ya gmn lagi :( anak2 dh pd ngg diluar..

pas dh kluar, gw mkr, gmn pd tw klo pepe dh kluar.. jdnya sengaja triak "bs ga pe buka mblnya??" lalu crotttt si erwin nyiramin tu ramuan ke pepe, tp pepe berhasil nunduk :( haihhh alhasil kena mbl sebelah.. swift putih!! lsg panik dah, ngebersihin, smp ada yang nyangkut di kaca blkgnya swift pula..

lalu ternyata, baru tau klo cara bkin ramuannya salah *maklum lah amatiran* ternyata harusnya jgn dicampur, tp di lempar masing2 *pantesan* tp ywdah lah yaaa.. pertamax bkin ramuan haha lalu mkn kue dehh..

once again, happy birthday pepe :)


lalu next, the same month jg, desember..

spent the first week of holz di rmh, trs minggu kedua ke bogor for new year celebration with entire fam (yg dr sby dtg ke jkt smua), trs minggu ke3 ke sby bwt lnjt ngumpul2
pas di bgr, ntn match indo vs malay brg2, duhh pgn deh nobar lg :( deg2annya trs ketawa2 brg awhhhh

lalu pas di sby, tiap mlm di lantai kmr mami, maen kartu smbl ntn sinetron *abisnya ga tau lagi mau ntn apaan haha* trs tiap kali maen kartu, psti ktawa2, kdg ktawa gara2 gw "ermm bentar... mmmm mmmm........ *stgh jam kemudian* passs" ya ga smp stgh jam sih, cm ya gt d haha *lebay*

trs pas udah kluarin kartu dengan pede, ternyata salah kluarin kartu "ermm ciee.. kok gini kartunya?" and ternyata yg gw kluarin tuh siki+pair, hrsnya tris+pair haha foolish me -,-"
ngakak lagi..

and yupp tiap kali gw jd bahan ktawaan spupu2 gw kecil2 yang tercinta wahahaha *dibully2 sm anak kecil2 ckck* but it was fun & memorable :)

thennn tgl 9 pun tiba.. hrs balik jakarta :( jam 330 dah bangun and jam 4 dah harus cao ke airport.. jiwa blm terkumpul smua haha trs tiba di airport, msti visit ko2 yang lg di RS coz penyakitnya *sensor* kambuh.. smp jam 11an br balik dr RS.. smp di rmh sgt2 teler, tdr smp jam 2 or 3.. and pagi mesti nyetir ke kampus lagi :(

oh iya, pas di sby, gw potong rambut -finally- haha tgl brp ya, 5 klo ga slh.. kyknya gw ptg rambut emang setaon sekali.. ya abisnya cocoknya cm di salon itu.. di jakarta ga pernah cocok, psti plg2 pgn motong poni lagi biar lebih sesuai sm yang gw mau -___-


oh iyaa.. sbtunya si pepe bli itouch.. plusss dia bikin iriiii, mcm2 lah cara dia bkin iri, sbeelll ckckck jd pengen itouch.. bnrnya emang dah pengen dari pas di bogor, tp krn mkr2 ttg duit yg msh pas2an, diurung dulu deh.. tp duhh pengen bnr hr ni bli itouch :( smoga jadi deh hari ini.. smoga diblhin pergi ntr..

anyways.. hasil nilai obgyn blm kluar.. pada bilang sih kmrn pas jumat hrsnya dah kluar, tp blm pada heboh soal nilai kmrn.. perhaps this week dh di post deh nilainya :)

pbl hemato sm dr. Juli, maya, gocci, juna, apin, febri, adit, jes, tasya mariya, dody ^^
cs smester ini sm ka Nia ^^ dan 8 orang lainnya: edgar, owi, patty, nechan, jep ganjil, ko benz, tuti, sheila :)

and block ini hrs dpt bgs! ckckck hrs rajin blajar.. smntra gw lg nulis blog -,-" rite.. omdo..

ywdah deh, lnjt kpn2 lagi hahaha klo inget ada yg mau dicritain, br update :)

see you alll ^^

consider it.

Some "events" that has happened since the last post made me think about the different point of views that might have to be considered in each "event". The events I'm talking about here is the AL and RG case. AL case has been going on for a few weeks now and RG is a recent one. Not actually the AL case, but A broke one of the R's camera.

These two cases are just examples of many situations which arouse different point of views from both the subject and the public despite that each side might have strong reasons to back him or herself up.

In the first case, neither sides are justified. If AL case didn't exist at the first place, R wouldn't be present at that moment and R's camera wouldn't be broken as well. R's was present because it was his/her job hence to earn money. And why AL case exist? Again, the "victim" has his or her own reason and he or she might not be guilty but not innocent. AL case wouldn't have existed if there were no contribution from "third party" because it wasn't their business, at all. I believe "it" was personal for AL and "it" wasn't expected to cause an issue and not attracting public's attention. But then, regarding AL's status, AL's action isn't justified as well.

In the second case, which happened recently (Saturday night), what AG did surely attract many pros and cons comments and critiques. You can say that the entire world knew what AG did. Many surely tried to think positively although the fact and effect is negative (causal effect). Millions surely talked about it, not to mention that half a page of about 40 pages of this morning's newspaper recalled what happened. If I were AG, I'd be very embarrassed of myself and how it happened will surely stick to me in my entire life. Some say AG's "suit" was probably the reason why it happened. It's simply a human error. Minors said that there isn't any explanation to what happened other than AG wasn't fully concentrated to what AG was doing and people shouldn't blame AG's "suit". Oh well, in every "case", pros and cons will arise from neither side.

These reminded me that in every case, we shouldn't blame one or the other side, but to put ourself in both shoes. What will you feel, do and act if you were A? What will you feel, do and act if you were B? We shouldn't judge just based on what we see (subjectively), but think about all the probabilities in every case. Yes, sometimes it's rather difficult for us to think that way because it is always easier for us to look at the negative side and to critique. It is always difficult to think positively and just to accept what happened.

People make mistakes.

I do, you do, we do and they do. If each and every person thinks negatively and acts based on it, there wouldn't be a year 2010. Okay, that's a little bit exaggerating, but the truth is, we would be living in chaos because none are tolerant, most or every one are selfish and mind others' business in a negative way. There would be no peace.

I want to share this picture:

"We all make mistakes"

Yes, we do. And we should always try to forgive whatever mistake the other side has made. In order to do that, we should try to position ourselves in their position. Did they intend to do it? How would you feel if you were them? Would you be able to easily "apologize" or would you feel this guilt that you're afraid he or she wouldn't forgive you?

Sometimes it just feel right that you (the correct side) make that first move to simply make "it" clear between you and the other side, to simply ask for their reasons to what they did. A simple and short talk with the "guilty" side may be quite hard for you, may be because you don't think it's necessary and when they're "sentenced" guilty, there is nothing they can say to make them become innocent. That, in fact, isn't what it's about. It's simply how you try to eliminate any hatred or "dislikes" in between the two sides. When things are clear and that you know their reasons, or pros and cons, you will be glad to be able just come up with a satisfying conclusion between the two sides.

But again, yes..

It's difficult, but not impossible.

life.karma.dream

Currently, several things are in my mind. Thus, I decided to write again although yesterday I just wrote one.

Life's been a roller coaster.

Specially for the last twelve months. I don't know if this is karma. Do you believe in karma?

Karma.

According to Princeton, Karma is "the effects of a person's actions that determine his destiny in his next incarnation".

Found this image on net:

Based on the above definition, you can say that karma is "an eye for an eye", which is that everyone else will treat you the way you treat others. Thus if you want people to treat you appropriately, then treat them appropriately first.

It's based on personal experience? Perhaps.

I've regretted several things that I've done in the past, really "the past". Not just the last 12 months, but for the last several years of my life.

Family issue? Maybe.

Academic issue? Maybe.

Love issue? Maybe.

Life issue? Maybe.

I've been trying my best to make things better -in a way-. But I guess it isn't as simple as I thought it'd be. I believe that Karma will stick to you for a life time.

In the past, I've made several "foolish" decisions and actions. I regret that I didn't thought about it over and over again before I took those steps. And yes, you can say that I am poor in experience, very poor. Then comes the "cause and effect" thing. I had to take steps that I didn't have to do if I wasn't that foolish. I'm not saying that I'm now mature and ALL my decisions are all correct and justified, but I think that I've thought about most of the steps that I took, and if I do regret, it will may be just a "slight" regret but I certainly hope I wouldn't.

I guess -probably- karma is into me now, due to one of my steps in the past. Some say (including me) I shouldn't regret about it because it was part of my journey of life, but some say, I should have think twice about it. But whatever, it has happened and now it's karma. I simply hope that it will end soon although I did say that karma is for a life time, but I really hope this karma will end soon, I mean I really want this to work. Don't know and don't really believe that it will end soon, but it's okay to hope, I suppose?

I really want this to work. Please. Pretty please.

Yet, it's again up to Him. If He wants it to happen, it will happen, some way and some day. Kept on thinking that He wants me to go through all this. Times when I was very happy and times when I am down, really down there, lost in my unconsciousness. As if all those was simply a beautiful dream that I can't get reach of.

I'd like to share this song, "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood, below is its lyrics so that you can sing along. Hope you enjoy ^^

It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
All dressed in white, goin' to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Six pins in her shoe, somethin' borrowed, somethin' blue

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down, tryin' to hide the tears
Oh, she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

The preacher man said, "Let's bow our heads and pray
Lord, please lift his soul and heal this hurt"
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard

And then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, well, what could've been?
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Ooh, baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go?
I was countin' on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, I'll never know

It's like I'm lookin' from a distance, standin' in the background
Everybody's sayin', he's not comin' home now
This can't be happenin' to me, this is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
It's just a dream, yeah, yeah